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Well shoot zoe is gone. She was one of my first three LiveJournal "Friends", all of them added at the same time. I am going to miss her entries. Of course I guess we have 30 days to see what happens. 30? 90? Something like that. And yeah I noticed when it first happened but am just commenting now.

It dawned on me just this afternoon that it's often hard to keep emotion out of discussions, and that this becomes especially difficult when emotions and anxiety on a topic are running high. So right now for example, of course it's tough for people to talk about John Walker Lindh or what have you without some heat creeping in. Oh and I wasn't happy that he was 'assaulted' in prison recently, and was struck by how much the news story I read about that sounded like an episode of HBO's OZ. It has to suck to be John Walker Lindh right now and that said I don't feel sorry him. I do want to read this article about him in the New Yorker that I just heard about.

People getting upset though... I am thin-skinned. In recent years I have also grown embarassingly temperamental. I really need to watch that shit and behave myself and be capable of engaging in discussions without losing my temper or making some judgment on the other party. Not easy.

Maybe this is part of why I have been big fat greasy hand grenade at work lately. Mike is such an arguer. Part of the problem with that - if that alone isn't enough, which it probably is - is he is really smart, can take a 'tone' that gets my back up, and he is not always right. Many times he is correct, but sometimes he does need to be called on his shit. Other times he is just going to spend ten minutes making you feel stupid on some topic you don't care that much about anyway, but just happened to express an opinion on. I need to not really care. I am trying. Mike though, man, if he could hunt down the person who invented the expression "we'll just have to agree to disagree", I think he would do it.

I am listening to all of my KGSR Broadcasts CDs on 'shuffle' today, again. This is such good music. I am still thrilled that Mike and Crista gave me these. Has to be one of the best gift I've ever received and it, y'know, keeps on giving.

I spent some time reorganizing books last night, and now I am happier with how I have things arranged, and possibly more at peace in general. It's not like the new scheme makes any more sense or is any more handy than what I had previously, I just like how it looks. Have I stumbled upon some 'feng shui'?

I stayed up til 3 in the morning last night due to Warcraft III. I am slow and plodding and don't know what I am doing but it is still addictive. Stupid computer games, black holes from which no time or attention can escape. This is why I don't own a 'gaming console', yet I rarely make productive use of my ass time anyway, so it probably wouldn't matter. I wasn't asleep for even six hours and I was back up again. Saturday and Sunday I can do that, during the 'work week' I can't; how come? Granted I am tired, probably grouchy, and will likely have a nap later on. I feel like taking a nap now, come to think of it.

In further lessons from the LiveJournal, I read some things here recently that made me decide I am too immature. Hopefully I can get some motivation out of this insight.

I haven't exercised in like two weeks now which really is bad. But obviously I have very important computer games distracting me.

but the shah sleeps in lee harvey's grave

One more Iraq war conspiracy theory for my collection, and it's probably the best yet; it's certainly the most entertaining:

St. George and Saddam's Secret Treasure.

Yet another example of someone shamelessly, to all appearances almost unconsciously, working popular science fiction terms and concepts into their UFO screed. Hmmm maybe that pattern applies to all UFO theories.

Here's a sample of what this guy's put together for us, taken from the Coast to Coast AM website:

'Salla believes a "transportation device to move between time and space" known as a Stargate was used by "the most privileged of the ET," in that area, which is now modern-day Iraq. "I think whatever technology is there, I believe Saddam Hussein is aware of it but wouldn't know how to use it at all," Salla said. He suggested that the location of the Stargate is why the Bush administration is so interested in Iraq, and there is concern about what would happen if this technology was activated and "an advanced race of ET's suddenly starts appearing in Iraq."'

That it's known as a Stargate, it's not even a coincidence, it's just... well what else would one call such a mechanism? Of course.

I am tired. I tried to take a nap and it didn't work out too well. Your pity, please, I must have it. No, more than that. More.