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the bugs always win
Sep. 25th, 2002 11:28 pmI felt like I had a pretty productive day at work... one of the better days so far at this job, really. I took care of a couple "administrative" kinda things this morning then I did wiring all afternoon and evening. I like doing non-exhausting manual stuff like wiring... something where you get to walk around and use your hands. Of course my job mostly involves sitting like a big lump and gazing moodily at a computer screen. I did an OK job with the wiring... everything worked the first time and I got stuff kind of mapped out and labeled rationally. Sometimes I wish I was an electrician but I guess I don't know what that would really be like.
So I thought I had a sort of good day, and I even felt all right for the most part during it... but I feel down tonight. Some chemical thing maybe? Eh who knows. I felt good after lunch despite it being so expensive... spent like 3x what I might've hoped I would. But oh well.
I do need to get on top of the money stuff. Lots of plane ticket expenses here lately alongside my usual inability to restrain myself from getting any book or whatever that catches my eye. I do need to go on some sort of program of not spending for things that aren't essential for awhile... gotta replenish the savings some. I heard some talk about investing and planning for retirement and whatnot last weekend... I guess I do need to pay attention to such things now... I always figure I have no dependents and probably won't live to be 70 or 80, and of course I have the sense someday I'll blunder into some windfall. Where that notion comes from I am not sure. Or really I guess I imagine I'll get my shit together and magically manifest some money. Very exciting fantasy but no luck as yet.
Wow I dunno my mood is all bad now. Drag. But I am sure it'll pass. Maybe I am missing talking to people? I'm sure that's part of it. Hrmmm this Real Sex show on HBO is starting to bug me. I think I am gonna do some dishes and go to bed.
So I thought I had a sort of good day, and I even felt all right for the most part during it... but I feel down tonight. Some chemical thing maybe? Eh who knows. I felt good after lunch despite it being so expensive... spent like 3x what I might've hoped I would. But oh well.
I do need to get on top of the money stuff. Lots of plane ticket expenses here lately alongside my usual inability to restrain myself from getting any book or whatever that catches my eye. I do need to go on some sort of program of not spending for things that aren't essential for awhile... gotta replenish the savings some. I heard some talk about investing and planning for retirement and whatnot last weekend... I guess I do need to pay attention to such things now... I always figure I have no dependents and probably won't live to be 70 or 80, and of course I have the sense someday I'll blunder into some windfall. Where that notion comes from I am not sure. Or really I guess I imagine I'll get my shit together and magically manifest some money. Very exciting fantasy but no luck as yet.
Wow I dunno my mood is all bad now. Drag. But I am sure it'll pass. Maybe I am missing talking to people? I'm sure that's part of it. Hrmmm this Real Sex show on HBO is starting to bug me. I think I am gonna do some dishes and go to bed.
